September 8, 2013

Shedding the skin

Well you guys, it's happening. I am leaving Lost Boys + Lovers. Ever since I made the switch it hasn't quite settled into that feeling of comfort that i crave. LB+L feels too much outside of myself, rather than within. Let me put it this way: LB+L is a really gorgeous bra that looks pretty but when you finally get home and take it off you breathe a sigh of relief and feel like yourself again: your ribcage shivers with delight at the possibility of you-ness. 

(bra burning)

sooo, this is not some grand announcement of what's next or what will transpire. i have no promises to make, and no promises to keep. i'm going back to blogging at sadiedeluxe, where i have 5 years of history and a lot of identity. i'm going to blog about babies and books and food and the weather - and probably some crafty stuff, too. and i'm going to keep selling vintage (also at ye olde shoppe of sadiedeluxe) because that's what i love to do - and if you buy some of it, that's fucking awesome, and if not, that's also awesome. it's really our relationship that i love the most. (really). 

so i'm going back. i'm taking off the bra and i might even burn it.

i won't get into it too much more right now, but as always, the journey continues. come with me if you want; i feel certain that we will all end up exactly where we need to be.

sadie rose

September 4, 2013

the end and the beginning

well, it finally happened: school has started. it is officially the end of summer - even though the afternoons are still hot (here), Fall is well on its way in the door and the evenings are colder, bedtime is earlier (helloooo school day alarm), and the weeks once again are marked by their weekends; gone is the endless flow of days that is summer vacation. 

as i mentioned, i managed to make some things with the garden bounty. whew. i made pasta sauce and froze it; i made one giant pear pie; i made it down to the creek just in time for the elderberries and i'm brewing another batch of tonic. 

i helped host a successful event, as i mentioned here, and it was a nice reminder of what community feels like. so often i remain in my hermit shell, and so it's nice to engage and experience an outpouring of energy, and to take part in the exchange. the event inspired me to make some more purses, all of which sold at the event. thank you dear community for supporting me and buying things i make.

have you been making things? are you SO excited that your baby is back in school, or are you sad? can you feel Autumn on your face yet??

August 28, 2013

simple things

See? I'm back already. Mostly because I took this photo and played with it and i love what happened. it reminds me of an old photograph of my mother's. something from the early 70s, buried in a box of snapshots that never made it into an album. 

also while i'm here, i've found a new-to-me blog that i love called Petal and Plume. it's gorgeous.

my mom lives up at Lake Tahoe, as i've mentioned many times before, and we can't visit her right now because of the smoke. yosemite is burning and my mom can't breathe. and we can't go visit because then we would all be grumpy and feel yucky. so instead she will come here for the final hurrah: the last days of summer vacation are upon us and school is on our very doorstep. 

summer is the best. 

but i also get excited for autumn. 

more soon 

Still here

blogland! i am still here and thinking of you. there are many things i wish to say, so many long letters to write. i have thoughts on love, on children, on the setting of the sun and the changing of the season. i made pickles. i made cookies. i have new ideas for old things. 

i will tell you some of these things soon, i promise. 

August 23, 2013

Local times

Do you live in Chico? Tonight is the second night of this event that I am co-hosting with some radical babes. Come see us!

Flyer by Archaic Revival

August 15, 2013

Clearing it out

In case you haven't seen on the other one million social networks that I use, Lost Boys + Lovers is having an epic clear-out sale for the rest of August. HALF-OFF everything!!

Thank you to all of you who support me. For reals. 


August 5, 2013


I intentionally didn't bring my laptop on this trip, and so today is actually the first time I've sat down in front of a real computer. it's been fun catching up on all of your blogs tonight.

tonight i'm in Eugene, and the air is perfect and summery. it's dark but warm and the air holds that perfect promise of past and future. this is the brief moment where we feel the thread that connects it all to the present: the warm nights, the bright stars, the cicadas, the tomatoes, the satiated hush of nightfall; these are signs of summer. but it is this shimmering edge, the moment where we feel summer and feel the things to come and remember the things that were - this is August. August is the fine line between it all. the heart of summer; the very depths before we rise into fall. this moment must be cherished, the delicate between-season season where we can almost smell fall (but not quite) and it is precisely this faint premonition that triggers the memories. at the same time, we can absolutely smell summer, and is is this immersion in the heat and the fruit that reminds us of now, of today, of all the summer days we've lived.

Also, I've been thinking a lot about love. Though I may have already posted this quote (Tom Robbins) recently, it deserves another post because i have been thinking about it:

Love is the ultimate outlaw. It just won't adhere to any rules. The most any of us can do is to sign on as its accomplice. Instead of vowing to honor and obey, maybe we should swear to aid and abet. That would mean that security is out of the question. The words "make" and "stay" become inappropriate. My love for you has no strings attached. I love you for free.

At first when I found this quote, I didn't think twice about it. I love you for free. Of course!

today i was thinking, though, how many people straight up refuse love that is offered because they are afraid there are strings attached. keep your love to yourself. what is up with that? is it because there is a lot of love in the world that has strings attached? or is it an unfounded fear? truly, i'm wondering. what are your thoughts on the matter?

are you able to love without attaching strings? can you give the gift? or is it hard?


loving you (string-free) from Oregon. i'm so glad we're here. 

July 24, 2013

Up North

Tomorrow I am going to Oregon for three weeks. I will see friends, I will see family, I will see my old stomping grounds; I will celebrate my birthday and I will wear shoes that I never get to wear here in the land of (beloved) trees and dirt. I will see a friend get married, and I will see friends I haven't seen in a long time. Quite possibly, I will not spend much time on the computer or on this blog. Or, just as possibly, I will feel super inspired to chronicle my journeys and I will load you with photos and stories and sweet memories of the lush state where I first became a mother. 

Who knows. 

I do know these things:

I am way stoked on all of your comments on my last post. Thank you. thank you for reading, for feeling me, and for commenting. All of your comments particularly touched me on this one. 
Yesterday, Suzanne at The House of Milk featured me on her blog. For this I feel quite honored, pleasantly surprised, and very thankful. I met Suzanne through the blogosphere...and we just so happened to both live in Chico. wtf? so awesome! Her blog is gorgeous and so is she.

I have packed approximately 12 pairs of shoes for my three-week trip. And I'm not ashamed. This is one of the most glorious aspects of car travel.

I recently have been getting to know my neighbors who have children that can play with my child. Today when my oven exploded, the neighbors fixed it and then invited me and Asher over for a dinner of homemade meatloaf and pickles, tomatoes, green beans and melon. And wine. 

These things, together or apart...and along with many other things unmentioned and unrealized, mean that life is really good; there is so much to be thankful for.

Blessed be the summer and the sweet things that grow.

See you soon.

(photo found here)

July 21, 2013

Beyond the limits

Did you know that I have been listing lots and lots of vintage?

Did you also know that I take photos of my models outside of my storage unit?

That is indeed a garage door you see behind these beauties. Having recently moved into a sweet and small home, I had to put my vintage in a storage unit so that i could actually live in my house. rather than haul the vintage elsewhere for photoshoots, i decided to bring the models up there to shoot. i created a little "dressing room" amongst all the dresses and racks, and we use the natural light (plus natural beauty) to shoot all the outfits. 

while it may not be perfect, and i am always working on refining my photos, it certainly works. it is also important for me to make things work, regardless of the circumstances. as a vintage seller, there is always something that could be better, prettier, smoother, etc. for me, i find it's important to navigate around or through these issues, rather than let them be total blocks. because sometimes that can happen - i.e. "i don't have a perfect space for shooting, therefore i cannot shoot at all." i have had that thought so many times, my friends. so many times.

very often, i think about this:

to pursue our passions, we have to start where we are. we have to use the resources that are within our reach, that we can touch with our fingers. we must do something each day, for the oh-so-distant day we sometimes imagine is not as relevant as this day, these actions, these resources. each day calls for something different, really: a different approach, strategy, or technique.

for me, i feel the impact of the seasons on my work. for instance, in summer, my son is home every day. all day. the workspace changes, the work day changes. priorities change and possibilities shift. it is up to me to recognize this and to gracefully move with it. sometimes i'm better at it than others. here is Asher during my most recent shoot:

improvise, improvise, improvise. right? what do you think? do you ever limit yourself unintentionally because you feel like something else is limiting you?

and what is your favorite vintage item in the photos?! i am loving the rayon florals. there are really some gems in the whole 90s comeback trend; i'm a fan.

July 19, 2013

hey baby

Sometimes i think i need to post more selfies on this blog.